Spoken Poetry

Just posting my entry. People who knows me doesn’t know this blog exist so yeah I’m free as a bird.
“Bes, akala ko wala lang yung tanong mo
Tinanong mo ako kung may gusto rin ako sayo
Sabi ko ng pabiro, malakas na oo
Natigilan ka, huminto ang mundo
Bale wala lang sakin kasi akala ko gets mo na wala
Pero sa araw-araw mo na pangugulit
Sinabi ko na lang na oo meron  nga
May nararamdaman din ako ng paulit-ulit
Hanggang isang araw nagkaaminan
Hindi ko alam kung seryoso ka sa’yong nararamdaman
Sabi mo sa’kin mas nauna kang mahalin ako
Tinago mo lang kasi magkaibigan tayo
Dun ko napagtanto na posible pala
Posibleng may magkagusto rin sa’kin at ikaw pa
Ikaw pa na naging nakaraan ng kaibigan ko
Tama ba ang nararamdaman nating ito?
Pero alam ko sa puso ko
Mahal mo pa siya at hindi mo yun maitatago
Saksi ako sa bawat luha
Saksi ako sa bawat saya
Gusto kong sabihin na wala na
wala na ang pag-ibig na datiy kumain sa aking kaluluwa
kaluluwa na sayo lamang umaasa
umaasa na sana maging tayo na
umaasa na sana makalimutan mo na siya
Pero hindi, kasi hindi mo magawa
magawang ibigin ako dahil mahal mo pa siya
Siya na naging mundo mo sa mahabang panahon
Panahon na naging masaklap, hindi kayo pinagkataon
Ayoko umasa dahil alam ko na wala talaga
Ayoko mag isip kasi alam ko sa utak mo hindi ako kailanman sumagip
Ayoko magsalita dahil bawat alpabetang binibigkas, tinatapos mo palagi sa isang walang kwentang wakas
Isang araw dumating ang panahon
Kasabay ng paghampas ng maraming alon
Masasabi ko kaya na mahal kita?
O mananatili na lang itong isang tula
Kaya ko pa bang aminin dumating man ang pagkakataon?
O sa isip at puso ko itoy mananatiling nakabaon?”
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Letter No. 01

Every time I feel something I couldn’t describe, the question “why?” always pops my head. Why do I have to feel something like this? To think, you are only 0.009% reality. I don’t know your whole being and background, haven’t seen you yet or even heard your voice. But why? Why do I always feel something that drags me down? I get lost because of you, I became estrange with my own self. So to stop this insanity I decided not to speak with you for how many months. That was the only way I could get out of your image but, every where I go, the Universe has its way of reminding me that I left something behind. I always see your name wherever I go. Kinda freaks me out actually. I am not good at keeping promises to myself so I broke my own when I started speaking with you again. It was okay but I know something has changed. All I got from you was, you missed this girl from Russia. Boy, I can totally erase you in my life and pretend that you haven’t existed at all. I can do it, but I don’t want to. Why? I don’t know the answers. Part of me wants to be with you someday no matter how hard or impossible it is. Part of me wants to see you even from afar no matter how long I have to wait. Part of me is hoping you will love me back even just for a while. I want to know you more. I want to know who you are, not at this generation. Have you contributed to my past life? Who are you in my future, or are you even a part of it? I don’t know. I don’t have the answers to these questions right now. All I can do is to live “at the moment” and make the most out of my life. I just don’t know what else to say. Sigh. I just want to be happy.

KL

Stars

I thought of you every single hour of every day. You are always here, in my mind and in my heart. Even if I choose to ignore the feelings, I know deep inside me that it won’t go away that easy. I trust our stars. I’ve seen our patterns and I believe them. Someday, when everything is okay, we will cross our roads again, in the most unexpected way like the first time we met. I’ll keep on loving you ’til then. I trust the universe and I believe what is already written. You will always and forever be my Gemini.leo_and_gemini_design___chosen_bateman_by_bloodytoeknuckle-d4nz1nn

A letter with no direction

Dear Future BF,

Again, I’m in the middle of loneliness. For some reasons I feel that there’s lacking in my heart. Is it you? I don’t know. Whenever I feel so empty, I always ask.. Is it gonna be the same if you’re here? Will I ever feel so empty and cold at this moment? That still I don’t know. I keep everything to myself, none of my close friends knew that I’m feeling this way. Honestly, I need you. How can a person feel they needed someone they haven’t meet yet? I’m not sure with the answer. Maybe there’s a blind connection between us that when I needed someone I come to think of you. All of the questions I have in my mind is when. When can I see you? When can I hug you? When can I kiss you? When can we share our love? I don’t know, will that someday going to happen? I’m longing for the touch I haven’t felt yet, longing for that lips I haven’t tasted yet, longing for you love I haven’t personally experienced yet. I love you and I miss you. Please be here soon.

Always,
Your Future GF